Monday, August 27, 2007

Grade one = Sad

I had a really good summer It started out relaxing and I felt that I had all the time in the world. It was a nice feeling. I really needed that. Now I have become more anxious again, there is a lot of things coming up on the calender and I know that anxiety #1 is that my girls will all be in full time school. Now to some they might be looking forward to the free time, the quiet house, but my friends I am not feeling this. I Don't want my babies to go to grade 1. I am really going to miss them. Most of the time I just avoid thinking and talking about it. But I know it has to come.
and now as I was just thinking about this I was wondering when we grow older spiritually with God does he have to let us go more? Does he get this feeling? I always pictured it the opposite to that. I figured that as I got older and closer in relationship to God I get closer to Him physically(in a mental picture kinda way) I guess when thinking again about my girls I know we have a closer relationship as they grow older but I have to be able to release them to learn and grow as individuals. Really I have no choice. And even if the comparison between God as a parent and me as a parent doesn't line up perfect I know that God understands and he's going to help me make this transition.

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

soon

It has been 2 months since my last blog, it seems I needed a summer holiday from a lot of things this year. Check back again soon because I'll be back.... soon.