Saturday, September 30, 2006

Sin

I am so unqualified for this... but thankfully God is and he can work despite me. Since Ben is gone to the memorial of his grandmother I am teaching his living truth class.. on sin .. LOL I guess I am qualified after all ... Sin and I know each other quite well unfortunately.....

On that note, I have something odd to tell you, it's long and drawn out but stick with me if you can and yes I plan on sharing this tomorrow because I think it may have been a lesson taught to me to teach to them and maybe you too.
How connected do you think we are to each other? Believers to believers, believers to non believers
Who do our sins really affect? and to what extent do they affect us? -the small hardly noticeable ones?

I haven't all the answers if that is what you where hoping, but this is what happened to me yesterday make of it as you will, in the end I praise my heavenly Father the healer and the lover of my soul.

(approximate times)
7:00pm A young friend of mine came over to download songs off the internet onto her I-pod. Ben is helping her and I am milling about the house, chatting occasionally with them, helping the kids with the game cube and getting a night snack ready.
I notice that her song selections are inappropriate and very sexual in nature. I contemplate saying something, but I don't, I see Ben is a little uncomfortable also he carries on. Note- they where using I-tunes to down load songs, $1 a song and then the songs are on our computer until we choose to delete them.
7:30 I start feeling a tad bit ill, but not enough to really bother me.
8:15 My friend leaves with 27 songs on her I-pod. I am feeling much worse but I don't tell her.
8:30 by now I am moaning on the sofa, I call for a pail, I am so sick I don't want to move. Ben gets me a pail and sits with me for a few minutes, I haven't hurled yet but I have the pail ready. Ben has to go pack for tomorrow so he says "Is there anything I can do for you before I go pack?" a thought cross my mind, it's really odd maybe even superstitious I think but no I need to tell him. "delete the songs off our computer." I think I am crazy to even have thought it none the less say it out loud. Could this really be the reason I am feeling so sick? I had said it out load but I hadn't convinced myself yet.Or ratehr The Spirit had not convinced me yet.
8:45 We decided to confess our sin and pray for healing, as Ben prayed he asks God if this is a spiritual sickness for God to take it from me and restore me to health, at the moment he says this I feel so terrible I begin to hurl but nothing comes out(LOL sorry to be so graphic, it's relevant, trust me) He continues to pray that if I am just sick with a flu , that I be healed, I lay back down on the couch feeling sick but not so bad as a few seconds earlier. Ben finishes the prayer
8:50 Ben goes to computer and begins to download the songs.
8:55 I throw-up everything in my stomach
9:00 Ben is finished removing the songs and I am starting to feel much better
9:30 I ate some bread and drank some water
I went to bed early and never felt sick again.

You know I felt like one of those miracles in the bible where Jesus heals a demon possessed child, or raises someone from the dead and then says "go get something to eat and drink"

I am thoroughly convinced that I have no idea what that was that happened to me last night but I do know that God is so good to teach me through it and let me learn as a precious child like I am.

This was packed with lessons for me/us
1. Don't help people download bad music
2. Wow, we are so connected physically to our sin and to others sins too
3. God speaks
4. You get really blessed when you listen
5. Wow, God heals
6. Trying to be helpful to the up and coming generations does not override the Spirits call
7. WOW, God loves me so much, praise him, yehaw
8. Sin is sin no matter how small
9. We can not explain God and his ways

Maybe you could also learn these things from The Father.

Well I better go to bed ...the rest is up to you.

Oma


She has gone home. Yesterday we got the call we had been waiting for, for 2 weeks nearly. Oma passed to glory and what a celebration she must be having with her new body and restored to her full potential. She is standing in the place she was created to be in. I will miss her terribly and I am very sad for Opa, Dad and the rest of the family, life on earth just will not be the same without Oma.....

Wednesday, September 27, 2006

Leaving a Comment

I love it when I get a comment on a blog. So I just wanted to help some of you bloggerchallenged individuals out, if you click the word comments at the bottom of the entry it will take you to a place where you can write a comment, then click other so you can type in your first name or your initials, best to leave out your last name. Then type in the letters they tell you to type(security measures) and look at that- you've commented.
Sorry to those that tried to comment on my earlier entries there wasn't the same options as I have now.

Tuesday, September 26, 2006

2 boys

I feel so good today, I am really happy to be alive. Praise the lord for life.

I had a dream that I was adopting 2 boys last night and the weirdest thing today is that every time I see a boy I am drifting off dreaming that i could actual adopt a few boys.. weird I know. Just wondering if anyone out there has two boys or one if that's all you have, that I can adopt. LOL I really would do it.

I just asked Ariel's friend that is over(a boy) if I could adopt him and he laughed and said "Noo, have your own!" LOL not gonna happen, and I knew that is what you where thinking too, so just to set you straight our baby factory is closed for business.

oh praise the Lord for good fun(with or without those two boys).

Sunday, September 24, 2006

Ladies retreat (part two)






yes it was wonderful. As you can see from the photos to the right we beautified (chocolate facials), partied, worshiped God, learned to dance Latin, met many women, wore silly hats and were inspired by the honesty, humor and love that our Speaker Gwen Hagarman shared(that is her in the photo with me in a silly hat) Gwen is a very funny person and has a very honest way. I knew her from my bible school days, she still hangs around PRBI quite a bite I hear, so if you're in the sexsmith Alberta area and you want to meet her wear pink and tell her I sent you. LOL
So you might be curious as to what I actually came away with, if your not curious, well too bad I'm going to tell you anyway.... First off the worship times where so amazing, it was like the air filled up with our voices and the music and the walls could not contain the sound. God was worshipped. JOY - Jesus Others and You.
Spell joy by putting Jesus first -when we have the focus on Jesus first, Others next and ourselves last, we will experience true joy, what a challenge, to keep Jesus on the throne of my life, Jesus is my king he deserves the highest place. She shared a lot more about Joy but I don't want to Go on and on. But I do what to say one more thing that I was challenged with, challenged with Once again might I say (seems God needs to do repeat lessons on me quite a bite) Listen to Jesus, walk arm in arm with Jesus so that I don't miss what God wants to do through me, ask Jesus "What do you want me to do?" Walking arm in arm with Jesus means to spend the time with him and have His word close at hand in my mind, kinda like the one lesson from last years retreat that I did not do so well at. Praise the Lord He's so patient and is still tryin to teach me.

Friday, September 22, 2006

Ladies Retreat

I am going on a ladies retreat in a few hours. You'd think I would be all excited about it but I just can not figure out why I am having a hard time getting excited, I have resorted to thinking that this retreat is going to be such an amazing retreat spiritually that the enemy has tried to detour me with the negative feelings. The topic is joy none the less, how fitting at this time for me. I suspect I will be reporting back here on Sunday about the amazing time I had. God is always talking to us we are just not always listening and I find at retreats my ears are a little more open.. maybe it is all the prayer that I know goes into them. Last year I was challenged with several thing-, disciple someone, know what you have in Christ, be more intimate with your husband and to get more scripture in my brain and in my heart. the results one year later - I did begin mentoring someone and for one month I focusing on who I am as a child of God(Neil Andersons breakdown), I know mine and Ben's relationship has really improved on ALL levels over the past 12 months(don't tell anyone but -I actually started to initiate s e x once in a while, and enjoy it), ... The last one I think has not affected me yet, I still need to work on memorizing The Word and keeping regular with studying the Bible. You know what, now that I am writing all that has happened just because of last years retreat I am starting to get excited about this weekend. Bring it on God. Here I come ladies....

Saturday, September 16, 2006

AIDS

-girls and women are 2 to 3 times more likely to get HIV than men
-There are 42 million people living with AIDS around the world
-Half of all those who are now age 15 in Zambia are expected to die of AIDS
-World wide only 5% of people who need AIDS drugs get them;only 1% of people in Africa get the drugs they need.
-When women and girls are considered to be less valuable than men and boys, they are less likely to get health care when they need it.
-Women without money often have to stay with men who abuse them and cheat on them and often they are not powerful enough to demand respect, safety and protection from their partners(which increases the spread to inocent women)

This information was found in the book By Deborah Ellis Our Stories, Our song

AIDS is affecting millions of people, for men it is bad, for women and children it is even worse, millions who did not make a bad choice. Either way we need to feel compasion when we hear their story beacause Christ also has compassion on them.
Our sponsor child Febby is from Zambia she lives in Busako Home. Febby was orphaned by her parents who died of AIDS, she is one of the lucky ones, she is in a home for orphans. Check out Seeds of Hope web site if you want to donate to help girls and boys affected by AIDS/HIV find a positive future. http://www.seedsofhopecm.com/

Thursday, September 14, 2006

Tell Her She's Beautiful

It was a beautiful sunny day in September and a comment was made that has never left me. Many things I have forget since that day but what Susan whispered to me, there in the back of the church on a most average day, still leaves a permanent glow in my memory banks and also has set me on a life long mission. What she said or rather what she gave me,(it was more than words it was a gift) was subtle but powerful. As she leaned in close to my ear, she gave me a hug and said "You look absolutely beautiful today."
God created us all with amazing beauty, we need to tell each other about it because as I probably don't need to tell you, us women, we struggle a lot with our image and feeling beautiful. Sometimes negative voices from our past keep coming back, insecurity and depression is high, the enemy is hard at work to keep women down.
Please join me and take on this subtle but powerful mission, to tell women you know how beautiful they are, inside and out.
ok actually it's not my mission - it's God's - he wants us to work with Him, just like Susan did.

Sunday, September 10, 2006

Can I be someone else?

I want to be someone I am not... have you ever felt that way? That is me right now. I really want to be that organized, energetic mom that has her house clean and a healthy appetizing meal on the supper table -ready at 5:15pm I want to have order and well mannered children that clean up after themselves. Am I asking too much? I want to be more disciplined to be this person... is it even possible? Presently I'm staring at children that beg and fuss,**background noise "SERAYA STOLE MY MONKEY!"*** they have to be nagged to tidy anything, the house that looks like a small tornado ripped through it and personally I have so many things I want/need to do besides tidy the house again or make that supper that will soon be needed. I feel like I am out of control. Can anyone relate? .... God help me, Being on Cindy street today is depressing not to mention a mess.

Monday, September 04, 2006

ANNIVERSARY

It has been 10 years since Ben and I walked down the isle. In a good way it feels like we ahve been together forever. Ben brought me 10 gorgeous roses and a fabulous jacket, they are both really beautiful. He is so special to me, I love him more every year and I really mean that. A few years ago I might not have meant it but in the last 3 for sure. It is amazing what God can do when you start to pray for your marriage. For all you out their wondering the street I hope and pray that your marriage will be as wonderful as I feel ours is right now, if not, start to pray for what you feel it is lacking.