After cross-country skiing with a friend in -40 weather.
*Cross-Country skiing
fantastic swift
moving breathing frosting
cold air in my lungs
winter
*I have been teaching cinquain poems this week
Thursday, February 28, 2013
Me and a Cinquain
I have nothing to say today, it's been 14 days and I've run out of things to say ...... I've been staring at the blankness for 10 minutes and nothing really grand has come to mind, so here is a picture and a poem, it's all I've got today.
Wednesday, February 27, 2013
Talk More
What is it?
Does anyone know what the picture is of that is displayed at the top of Cindy Street?
Place your guess' in the comments below.
My mom wants to know.
I've spent a lot of hours on the phone in my life. Over the past 16 years of my marriage I have only lived near my parents for 3 and 1/2 years of it. I have really gotten used to it I guess, but I still cry sometimes. I talk to my mom and dad often on the phone and if we have time(I have time) to stay on the phone long enough we can really get into it. I love talking to them. Yesterday, I was on the phone with my mom and we talked about how difficult it is to really know someone by just talking on the phone. It seems so much easier when you see people face to face regularly( but what would I know about that). We weren't sure about all the reasons but for one we figured you have to stay on the phone long enough to make it past the pleasantries and small talk. Nothing wrong with the details of life but it seems the weather, listing the previous days events, talking about other people and plans for the day take most of our time and it takes time to get to what God is teaching us or what our struggles are...... maybe there is more reasons for us delaying those topics than not having the time - it's hard to talk about the issues close the heart but it seems those real-heart-issue conversations leave you feeling so refreshed. Good conversation Mom - thanks.
So the moral of the blog is.....talk more or at least make it past the basics in your conversations with people who really matter to you.
Does anyone know what the picture is of that is displayed at the top of Cindy Street?
Place your guess' in the comments below.
My mom wants to know.
I've spent a lot of hours on the phone in my life. Over the past 16 years of my marriage I have only lived near my parents for 3 and 1/2 years of it. I have really gotten used to it I guess, but I still cry sometimes. I talk to my mom and dad often on the phone and if we have time(I have time) to stay on the phone long enough we can really get into it. I love talking to them. Yesterday, I was on the phone with my mom and we talked about how difficult it is to really know someone by just talking on the phone. It seems so much easier when you see people face to face regularly( but what would I know about that). We weren't sure about all the reasons but for one we figured you have to stay on the phone long enough to make it past the pleasantries and small talk. Nothing wrong with the details of life but it seems the weather, listing the previous days events, talking about other people and plans for the day take most of our time and it takes time to get to what God is teaching us or what our struggles are...... maybe there is more reasons for us delaying those topics than not having the time - it's hard to talk about the issues close the heart but it seems those real-heart-issue conversations leave you feeling so refreshed. Good conversation Mom - thanks.
So the moral of the blog is.....talk more or at least make it past the basics in your conversations with people who really matter to you.
Tuesday, February 26, 2013
Make life a little Funny
It's hard to be funny when you're not feeling funny, but I will try because I have 2 funny stories from our house today.
First story is called "Wanna see something cool?"
I discovered that my new running sweater has little fold-over flaps on the cuffs to cover my hands when it's cold. I remembered this discovery as I was making the girls lunches and I wanted to show it off so I called the kids into the kitchen to show them - "Hey girls come here for a second." It took them a few seconds to come, so being the efficient mom that I am I grabbed the can opener and started open a can of mini corns. (Picture a messy kitchen with a lot of food waiting to be put away and dishes waiting to be washed. Oh and half a carton of eggs sitting open near the edge of the counter). Just as the girls arrived in the kitchen 3 things happened in very quick succession - I said " You wanna see something cool?" -my hand slipped off the handle of the can opener and hit the cartoon of eggs -the eggs and carton flew off the counter and with a splat hit the floor. We all stood and stared at it. There were no survivors ...."that is not the cool thing I wanted to show you." .....Laughter.... and now we have a few less eggs and a new quote "Wanna see something cool?"
Second story is called - Mom likes to play jokes.
I made an insane amount of puff wheat cake just as the kids were coming home from school. They all had a piece while it was still loose and sticky. Then to speed up the cooling process I laid the 2 pans on the snowbank outside. As I put them outside I told the kids not to let the dog out for the next bit. The kids went off to play and I waited till the right moment, when the kids weren't paying attention, to bring the cakes inside. I took the cakes out of their pans and placed them on a cookie sheet, then I returned the empty pans outside and let the dog out... and waited. Suddenly I heard "Oh no mom!! The dog!!" me - "oh no The dog!" ..... Am I a "bad" mother? :P
lesson to learn - Make life a little funny.
On a serious note -pray for me to be a wise parent, it feels like a tough job today.
First story is called "Wanna see something cool?"
I discovered that my new running sweater has little fold-over flaps on the cuffs to cover my hands when it's cold. I remembered this discovery as I was making the girls lunches and I wanted to show it off so I called the kids into the kitchen to show them - "Hey girls come here for a second." It took them a few seconds to come, so being the efficient mom that I am I grabbed the can opener and started open a can of mini corns. (Picture a messy kitchen with a lot of food waiting to be put away and dishes waiting to be washed. Oh and half a carton of eggs sitting open near the edge of the counter). Just as the girls arrived in the kitchen 3 things happened in very quick succession - I said " You wanna see something cool?" -my hand slipped off the handle of the can opener and hit the cartoon of eggs -the eggs and carton flew off the counter and with a splat hit the floor. We all stood and stared at it. There were no survivors ...."that is not the cool thing I wanted to show you." .....Laughter.... and now we have a few less eggs and a new quote "Wanna see something cool?"
Second story is called - Mom likes to play jokes.
I made an insane amount of puff wheat cake just as the kids were coming home from school. They all had a piece while it was still loose and sticky. Then to speed up the cooling process I laid the 2 pans on the snowbank outside. As I put them outside I told the kids not to let the dog out for the next bit. The kids went off to play and I waited till the right moment, when the kids weren't paying attention, to bring the cakes inside. I took the cakes out of their pans and placed them on a cookie sheet, then I returned the empty pans outside and let the dog out... and waited. Suddenly I heard "Oh no mom!! The dog!!" me - "oh no The dog!" ..... Am I a "bad" mother? :P
lesson to learn - Make life a little funny.
On a serious note -pray for me to be a wise parent, it feels like a tough job today.
Monday, February 25, 2013
Precious Memories of Africa
I was just thinking back on my days in Zambia last November. I was trying to recall some of the most precious moments of those 2 weeks and this is the memory that came back; it happened on the first day we were there. It was a Sunday and that is the day that the kids have Awana club. About 20 minutes before the start time and I met Naomi. She was just wandering around so I asked her what she did at Awana. She told me about the singing, Bible lesson, games and Bible memory. I asked her which verses she needed to memorize. She couldn't remember but she wanted to know what I was memorizing and she was very interested in my bible. So we sat down on the grass, ants running up and down my legs and all, and we opened my bible together and started looking for verses. I told her I was working on memorizing Isaiah 40:28-31. She wanted to memorize it too so we worked on it together. Then she showed me one of her favorite verses Jeremiah 33:3. This was a moment in time. I remember feeling warm, not just on the outside but on the inside, a precious moment I had waited for for so long. After awhile, Darcy, one of the other team members came by and did an impromptu dramatization of the Isaiah 40 verses. This made Naomi laugh. It had only been 20 minutes but that was enough time for Naomi to work her way into my heart and it was also enough time for her to feel that my Bible was her Bible. She held my Bible with a tight grip and walked off to Awana.
Isaiah 40:28-31
"Do you not know?
Have you not heard?
The Lord is the everlasting God,
the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He will not grow tired or weary,
and his understanding no one can fathom.
He gives strength to the weary
and increases the power of the weak.
Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;
but those who hope in the Lord
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint."
Jeremiah 33:3
" Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know."
Isaiah 40:28-31
"Do you not know?
Have you not heard?
The Lord is the everlasting God,
the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He will not grow tired or weary,
and his understanding no one can fathom.
He gives strength to the weary
and increases the power of the weak.
Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;
but those who hope in the Lord
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint."
Jeremiah 33:3
" Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know."
Saturday, February 23, 2013
Saturday
...is for pancakes.
...: a day of rest from regular work.
...is a day for playing games, playing in the snow and playing jokes on each other.
...: a day for family cleaning chores.
...is for running long runs.
...: an opportunity for extra reading and writing.
...is for being together as a family.
...: a day for video games and movies, pizza and pop.
...is for inventing and crafting.
...: a day for parties and friends.
...is for dreaming of summer vacations and gardening.
...: an opportunity for almost anything.
... is a day I love.
...: a day of rest from regular work.
...is a day for playing games, playing in the snow and playing jokes on each other.
...: a day for family cleaning chores.
...is for running long runs.
...: an opportunity for extra reading and writing.
...is for being together as a family.
...: a day for video games and movies, pizza and pop.
...is for inventing and crafting.
...: a day for parties and friends.
...is for dreaming of summer vacations and gardening.
...: an opportunity for almost anything.
... is a day I love.
Friday, February 22, 2013
He Opened my Eyes
During our devotion time this morning we were listening to Tim Hughes 'Beautiful One'. I closed my eyes and imagined what Jesus would look like if I sang it to him. I imagined Jesus enjoying the moment and swaying back and forth while sitting in his usually spot; his big wooden deck chair(#8). After a while I guess he stood because then I imagined my family members coming to him one by one and he hugged them, some did not respond to the hug, for them I prayed for something special to happen today so they might recognize Jesus in their life. All this time the song and video was still playing, actually it had only been two and half minutes because I opened my eyes at this time and saw to my amazement the picture on the screen was of the place I imagine Jesus and I meeting, no kidding our place looks almost exactly like the picture at 2:39, this was the place I was just at in my minds eye... the yellow grass field with one lone tree in the middle and the trees beyond the Field. and the words on the screen caught my attention too "Open my eyes to your wonders anew, you captured my heart with this love. Because nothing on earth is as beautiful as you." He opened my eyes, Jesus wanted me to see it, I am amazed at his wondrous ways.
Thursday, February 21, 2013
10
Maybe you checked in today hoping I would be saying something exciting or challenging, well sorry because this will once again just be about me...blahblahblah..... you have no obligation to continue reading.
What you might not know about me......
1. I get obsessed about random things and I will spend hours and hours researching the internet on the topic of obsession. Examples are - goat farming, sailing crew wanted, circus disasters, The Seychelles or pigeon racing just to name a few.
2. I still play Age of Empires, the old version, on lazy Sunday afternoons or snow days.
3. I like people to like me... I want everyone to like me. It disturbs me if I think someone doesn't like me. I think I put too much pressure on myself with this one.
4. I have a lot of grey hair for my age or at least it seems that way because everyone else is colouring theirs and I can't tell.Most of the time and just for myself I have kinda taken a personal stand against colouring my hair but I have to confess I sometimes feel tempted to be drawn in by the social pressure. Then I ask why is coloured hair more desirable than grey?
5. I peel my finger nails off when I get anxious.
6. I dislike reading through the Bible in a year. I prefer a slow pondering/wandering read the bible in a decade.
7. I could mix steamed spinach into almost any meal because I love it that much.
8. When I pray I imagine Jesus and I am sitting on huge wooden deck chairs in the middle of a savanna grass field in Africa. The chairs were Jesus' pick and the location was mine.
9. I think this lent I have chosen is a good challenge to get me writing more but I don't think it is a very good lent to help me focus on Jesus. It seems to be missing the main thing.
10. I read Elizabeth Esther's blog.
What you might not know about me......
1. I get obsessed about random things and I will spend hours and hours researching the internet on the topic of obsession. Examples are - goat farming, sailing crew wanted, circus disasters, The Seychelles or pigeon racing just to name a few.
2. I still play Age of Empires, the old version, on lazy Sunday afternoons or snow days.
3. I like people to like me... I want everyone to like me. It disturbs me if I think someone doesn't like me. I think I put too much pressure on myself with this one.
4. I have a lot of grey hair for my age or at least it seems that way because everyone else is colouring theirs and I can't tell.Most of the time and just for myself I have kinda taken a personal stand against colouring my hair but I have to confess I sometimes feel tempted to be drawn in by the social pressure. Then I ask why is coloured hair more desirable than grey?
5. I peel my finger nails off when I get anxious.
6. I dislike reading through the Bible in a year. I prefer a slow pondering/wandering read the bible in a decade.
7. I could mix steamed spinach into almost any meal because I love it that much.
8. When I pray I imagine Jesus and I am sitting on huge wooden deck chairs in the middle of a savanna grass field in Africa. The chairs were Jesus' pick and the location was mine.
9. I think this lent I have chosen is a good challenge to get me writing more but I don't think it is a very good lent to help me focus on Jesus. It seems to be missing the main thing.
10. I read Elizabeth Esther's blog.
Wednesday, February 20, 2013
From my Brain to Yours
I know it might not always look think it but it takes me about 2 hours to write a post for my blog. Sometimes even 3 hours and on a highly efficient day 1 hour. I have no idea how that compares to other people but for me that seems like a lot of time.
I write the intro/general idea, read and edit it, sit and think, write more, read again and edit more, sit and think, sometimes almost rewrite the whole thing, read and edit, write, read, edit, read, think, read again, spell check, preview the page, read again, pick a title, say to myself this needs a picture but I don't want to spend time looking for one, read it again, then if it doesn't need more editing I wait for a confident wind to blow by and click publish and read it again as a finished piece. Sometimes I still find errors and have to go back to edit stage. All this is done before you read it for the first time. I am way over working this.....ah well. It is a good feeling when all is written and clicked.
This one only took me 30 minutes.
I write the intro/general idea, read and edit it, sit and think, write more, read again and edit more, sit and think, sometimes almost rewrite the whole thing, read and edit, write, read, edit, read, think, read again, spell check, preview the page, read again, pick a title, say to myself this needs a picture but I don't want to spend time looking for one, read it again, then if it doesn't need more editing I wait for a confident wind to blow by and click publish and read it again as a finished piece. Sometimes I still find errors and have to go back to edit stage. All this is done before you read it for the first time. I am way over working this.....ah well. It is a good feeling when all is written and clicked.
This one only took me 30 minutes.
Tuesday, February 19, 2013
Pay the Maid
Hi people!
It is a snow day for us. Yeah! That means kids don't have school and mom gets 3 extra helpers to clean the house.(The last snow day we had I let them make a mess, so don't go all thinking I am no fun.)
Truth about me--- I am messy.
I actually think I am still a teenager in this area and that makes things complicated as a mother trying to train her children to clean-up behind themselves. Learning to clean-up is an important skill and as much as I know my mom tried to teach me this skill I still make a mess like I didn't learn a thing. But I have hope because I am not as bad as I used to be. So saying all that actually makes it kinda funny that I am about to give you all a tip on how to keep your house clean. We call it 'Pay the Maid'. This will cost you $2 per person in your home and rest assured mom is not the maid in this situation. If you are like me and you are still learning the skill of cleaning or if you have kids that are mess makers(who are we kidding, aren't all kids mess makers!?), 'pay the Maid' might help you too.
Here is how it works:
1. You need one paper cup for each person in the house.
2. Write one name on each cup.
3. Place 20 dimes in each cup. Or 20 quarters if you're really rich or desperate.
4. Give the instructions to your family - if you leave something(we started with winter gear, clothing and towels) on the floor or not put away whoever finds it puts it away and gets to move 10 cents from your cup into theirs. and visa-versa. 10 cents for each item
5. After a set amount of days (we did 3 weeks) we each get to take our money out of the cups and we go to the candy store or coffee shop or slushy machine.
6. If it went well, continue with the same items or change it to new items.(We are going to do books, games and crafts next)
we made one rule about who could go into whose room because there is a big issue in our house about barging into their sisters rooms uninvited. Kids are not allowed to collect from their sisters room, but our room and all other rooms are fare game.
'Pay the maid' works - I have not left any clothing on my bedroom floor for 2 months! The bathroom almost never has dirty underwear or clothing laying around for me to pick up and move 6 inches into the laundry hamper! There are no single socks slinking under the sofa or bed or laying anywhere for that matter! It has made a huge difference in our mess making. I feel like I am trying to sell you something.... It has been so good for me, the kids kept me on my toes, I had the least amount of money at the end of our first 3 weeks but I have formed new habits and so have the kids and Ben.
Note - Pay the maid is different than an allowance. We give our kids an allowance each month that is separate from this. Their allowance it has nothing to do with work. The house work they do is because they live in the house and thus learn to contribute to the work of life. Their reward for cleaning is the same reward as Ben and I get: satisfaction in a job well done and enjoying clean spaces.
It is a snow day for us. Yeah! That means kids don't have school and mom gets 3 extra helpers to clean the house.(The last snow day we had I let them make a mess, so don't go all thinking I am no fun.)
Truth about me--- I am messy.
I actually think I am still a teenager in this area and that makes things complicated as a mother trying to train her children to clean-up behind themselves. Learning to clean-up is an important skill and as much as I know my mom tried to teach me this skill I still make a mess like I didn't learn a thing. But I have hope because I am not as bad as I used to be. So saying all that actually makes it kinda funny that I am about to give you all a tip on how to keep your house clean. We call it 'Pay the Maid'. This will cost you $2 per person in your home and rest assured mom is not the maid in this situation. If you are like me and you are still learning the skill of cleaning or if you have kids that are mess makers(who are we kidding, aren't all kids mess makers!?), 'pay the Maid' might help you too.
Here is how it works:
1. You need one paper cup for each person in the house.
2. Write one name on each cup.
3. Place 20 dimes in each cup. Or 20 quarters if you're really rich or desperate.
4. Give the instructions to your family - if you leave something(we started with winter gear, clothing and towels) on the floor or not put away whoever finds it puts it away and gets to move 10 cents from your cup into theirs. and visa-versa. 10 cents for each item
5. After a set amount of days (we did 3 weeks) we each get to take our money out of the cups and we go to the candy store or coffee shop or slushy machine.
6. If it went well, continue with the same items or change it to new items.(We are going to do books, games and crafts next)
we made one rule about who could go into whose room because there is a big issue in our house about barging into their sisters rooms uninvited. Kids are not allowed to collect from their sisters room, but our room and all other rooms are fare game.
'Pay the maid' works - I have not left any clothing on my bedroom floor for 2 months! The bathroom almost never has dirty underwear or clothing laying around for me to pick up and move 6 inches into the laundry hamper! There are no single socks slinking under the sofa or bed or laying anywhere for that matter! It has made a huge difference in our mess making. I feel like I am trying to sell you something.... It has been so good for me, the kids kept me on my toes, I had the least amount of money at the end of our first 3 weeks but I have formed new habits and so have the kids and Ben.
Note - Pay the maid is different than an allowance. We give our kids an allowance each month that is separate from this. Their allowance it has nothing to do with work. The house work they do is because they live in the house and thus learn to contribute to the work of life. Their reward for cleaning is the same reward as Ben and I get: satisfaction in a job well done and enjoying clean spaces.
Monday, February 18, 2013
Asking for Prayer
Why is it so hard to share things about ourselves when it comes to prayer? Even when those we would share our 'small' or large need with are trustworthy and truly interested in us. It seems easy to ask others to pray for the concerns of a friend, a family member, a neighbor, a cat or dog but for ourselves we become shy and remain silent.
I always pray with a group of ladies on Tuesday mornings(when I can get there). They are true and enthusiastic prayer warriors. I am like a student in their midst yet they never ever treat me that way; they treat me as a equal. I really need to brag about them more often. The thing is I just don't say a whole lot about my personal prayer requests there. I don't have huge personal needs to ask for but I am sure I could think of tons of places in my life I need more of God but I hardly say a thing about my requests. I think it's - too small, not too important and better to listen.
Some people might say, listening to others is better than talking about yourself, ok in some places and times this is the best advice but if we are not going to be real in prayer times with our fellow prayers when will we be? To remain silent about our specific needs for God in prayer smells a little like pride. Maybe we are afraid of what people will think of us when they know our specific needs or we are worried people will try to fix, give advice, comfort or make a big deal out of us, which of course does happen, but we need to get past what other people think or do and just do what we know we need to do. We need to surrender our pride. It is hard to say "Pray that I trust God more because right now I do so much on my own strength." or "I am having a hard time hearing the voice of God. Pray that I will hear him again."
Since I decided to be more vulnerable in all areas of life I thought I would mention my lent to my prayer group and then I asked them to pay for me. Even though we have prayed together for years I still felt awkward saying "Pray that I will lay aside what people may think and be more real in my life."
These are my thoughts; what are your thoughts on the topic?
** Do you like my new background colours? I thought I would change it up to be a little more springy... though no spring here today only a blizzard.
I always pray with a group of ladies on Tuesday mornings(when I can get there). They are true and enthusiastic prayer warriors. I am like a student in their midst yet they never ever treat me that way; they treat me as a equal. I really need to brag about them more often. The thing is I just don't say a whole lot about my personal prayer requests there. I don't have huge personal needs to ask for but I am sure I could think of tons of places in my life I need more of God but I hardly say a thing about my requests. I think it's - too small, not too important and better to listen.
Some people might say, listening to others is better than talking about yourself, ok in some places and times this is the best advice but if we are not going to be real in prayer times with our fellow prayers when will we be? To remain silent about our specific needs for God in prayer smells a little like pride. Maybe we are afraid of what people will think of us when they know our specific needs or we are worried people will try to fix, give advice, comfort or make a big deal out of us, which of course does happen, but we need to get past what other people think or do and just do what we know we need to do. We need to surrender our pride. It is hard to say "Pray that I trust God more because right now I do so much on my own strength." or "I am having a hard time hearing the voice of God. Pray that I will hear him again."
Since I decided to be more vulnerable in all areas of life I thought I would mention my lent to my prayer group and then I asked them to pay for me. Even though we have prayed together for years I still felt awkward saying "Pray that I will lay aside what people may think and be more real in my life."
These are my thoughts; what are your thoughts on the topic?
** Do you like my new background colours? I thought I would change it up to be a little more springy... though no spring here today only a blizzard.
Saturday, February 16, 2013
Saturday Thoughts on Lent
Why do lent?
I recently counted - I’ve been doing lent for 14 years, I may have skipped a year or two in the middle somewhere, can't say for sure. But, wow 14 - makes me feel old... I didn’t grow up
“lenting”, I didn't even know what lent was until I was an adult and when I first heard about it I thought it was just for Catholics. I am not sure what got me to start, but must have been some encouragement from a teacher or a friend because we were at Bible school that first year. The first thing I lented was chocolate. I was pregnant with Ariel and it was not easy. I remember being at
the prenatal class when someone brought chocolate chip cookies for everyone and I couldn’t
have any because of the chocolate, well actually I wanted the cookie so badly I nibbled on the cookie avoiding the chocolate chips and eating the cookie parts, now that is desperate(and talk about taking a loop hole). I am not exactly sure why I have a solid memory of this, it could be because I was ticked with myself
for trying to be so ‘religious’ and there I was 'suffering' or if I remember it because I formed a solid thought toward God in
that moment..... Let's go with the second.
I do lent because it turns my thoughts toward God more often during the day. Lent is a fast and I say why not use a historical fast time such as lent to do what Jesus tells me to do. Sometimes I have reached the end of the 40 days only to find myself saying - "I'm glad that's over." It's not always easy but it's not a waste if in anyway I was turned toward God.
During this lent season, as I shared on Wednesday, am taking on blogging each day. It seems strange but it is a sacrifice because I was getting so comfortable not being vulnerable and sharing my life and thoughts and challenges and for me it's important to be real and transparent, and my blog is a place for me to do that. Each time I blog I feel I keep the door of my heart open and it seems the mask layers can't build up as fast.
Are you lenting?
Why do you lent?
Friday, February 15, 2013
Freedom
The other day the kids started telling me about a test they did at school to find out which basic need they are most in need of. I found it interesting. (Click on the 4 needs above to read more.) They each told me which one from the above list they are in highest need of and I could totally agree with each of their results. Seraya - Freedom, Joelle - Fun and Ariel - Power. Now I would love to do this test myself, not because I like boxes but because it's fun to see what they say. I looked for it but couldn't find it, but that's ok I don't really need it anyway. Without doing the 'test' I am pretty sure I know what my highest need is. I need freedom.
My reasons for choosing freedom:
1. I don't like boxes
2. I can and will choose which word describes me without a test to tell me.
3. The whole event the other day by the side of the highway.(click here to read the story)
This event was an out-pouring of a need for adventure that stirs in me sometimes. I try to have adventures and carry-on with an interesting life without getting myself into too much trouble, that's why I did it. I need freedom from boring.
What do you think is your highest need?
Thursday, February 14, 2013
Birthday Photos
I love Birthdays. Here are some photos from yesterday.
After my 4 mile run!
finger knitting and a costume tea party.
Cake, candles and a kiss.
Wednesday, February 13, 2013
Are you Passing Altona?
Quick context for my story -- I have been working on keeping my promises and doing what I say I'll do. I have a lot of unfinished business over the years; things I've said I would do that I didn't do, so I am slowly trying to complete these unfinished promises. I'll tell more about that another time but that needed to be said to explain why I was so..... 'crazy' yesterday.
I promised a friend that I would drop off some decorations for the valentines tea that she was decorating for. I couldn't help decorate because I was off to the city with the kids but I told her I would leave the doilies at the church..... ya sure! -Time to leave for the city, North bound we go, bombing down the highway. At about 20 min.s out I look down to the passenger side floor mat and there is the bag of doilies... aaaaahhhhh. I have to get these to the church!
Plan A) drive back to town to deliver them myself.... No, this would take too much time and the kids would have mutiny on me. The one hour drive is enough without backtracking....
Plan B) I'll call and say buy new ones and I'll just pay for these out of my own pocket.... Nope! The cell phone was dead and I left it at home .... I need another plan. I needed to keep my word, there had to be another plan...... The south bound vehicles caught my attention ....
Plan C) What if someone going to Altona took these for me? ... but I don't know of anyone going to Altona right this minute from where I am (by now 30 minutes out). A brief and crazy thought passes through my mind ..... No, I couldn't do that - Stand on the side of the road holding a sign out to south bound traffic!!!! The thought went out and then came back in, out and in. I tried to ignore it. Why not, I could do this, someone would be bound for Altona..... Oh my, oh my, am I crazy? I would need a paper and a marker..... A confused Ariel passed me 2 pieces of her note paper and what do you know, I just happened to have one of my markers from work in the console. I pulled around onto the southbound shoulder and marked the words, "Are you passing Altona?" ...Oh, yes I did!... As I stood beside the van; kids ducking low in their seats I waved my sign to all traffic... 2,4,6 maybe 12 vehicles passed. "I can do this. Be patient.", "I live a life worth writing about!! and I will keep my word."...... Finally a nice elderly man stops and agrees to take the rather small bag of doilies to a small town near their destination. The plan was coming together and I was relieved to know that I was closer to fulfilling my word and also freed from my rather embarrassing roadside job. From there I found a payphone and called our church secretary who helped the doilies complete their journey and YES they made it to the hall for decorating on time.
Big thanks to those that helped those doilies get to the church.
Oh and today's my Birthday -Happy Birthday to me!
Tuesday, February 12, 2013
To Be Vulnerable
If you have followed my blog over the past 7 years you will know how I started out being vulnerable and real, I tried my best to give you the real picture of what Cindy's street/heart, life lessons and silly moments were like. If you've stuck with me you'll also know how sporadic I have been in the past 3 years and how private I have become. I have tried sometimes to make a come back but I have failed most of the time.. alas my die hard fans ....... don't despair!(or is that despair) This is not a "I quit post", though that might be a good idea instead of stringing you along for another year. This is a I-am-crazy-and-I'm-trying-again post. At least for the next 40 days. I am taking a challenge for God to blog everyday for lent. Lent is the religious word for the days from Ash Wednesday to Easter when people give-up something to gain a closeness of The Spirit, it starts tomorrow and takes us to Easter. So this is 40 days, minus the Sundays. .... Count it you sceptics, I don't have to blog on Sunday's!
I sense God asking me to be more vulnerable and real; and this is one place for me to do this. Honestly I fear that I will fail and I am nervous as to what vulnerable means for me in the next 40 days. What will pour out onto these pages now when I am really honest and real? Will you find out I am insecure? A selfish wife and a lazy mother? I'm a spiritual mess and I have pretty near nothing but the basics figured out? What will you learn about me?
While you get the voyeuristic high I get a nervous twitch.
One of the reasons I see 'real' as important is because I believe we are all struggling and when we are vulnerable we help each other. When I find a kindred struggler in this life I feel comfort, I feel courage to go on. So, through this blog, if I am that for you then I find it is worth it. Anyway seems I'll give it a shot and see what happens again.
Or maybe I will give you a chuckle and that is worth it too.
Enjoy!
Or maybe this will be the most boring blog of the year, let's see what happens.
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